positive words or wisdom from miss crow


for anyone who's been feeling low...

snip from everyday is a winding road

I'm just wondering why I feel so all alone
Why I'm a stranger in my own life
Jump in, let's go
Lay back, enjoy the show
Everybody gets high, everybody gets low
These are the days when anything goes

Everyday is a winding road
I get a little bit closer
Everyday is a faded sign
I get a little bit closer

psst. I'll tell you a secret...
the project I've been working on has finally launched *shock horror* I'm still not quite over the shock of it all.
It's a beautiful sunny day here today and I've taken a break from cycling today to give my poor bell ringing thumb a rest... when it's cold and pedestrians in London have no concept that there are bicycles as well as cars on the road... I need to ding my bell lots on the way home. Last night was well chilly!

My tube journey was most strange this morning as I had the overwhelming feeling that I was either really early or really late for work. There was no one on my train... or on the down escalator... I had to seriously think to myself if it was truly Friday or if I had just gotten up to come to work on a Saturday!? Hmm it's Friday... and I was on time to work... stranger things have happened.

follow-through phobia bus conductors and naughty auto generated passwords

okay so there was a strange incident yesterday. I was on the bus on the way to supper with miss W we paid for our tickets to Highbury barn where we were meeting some of her work friends for supper... the nice conductor promised to let us know when the stop was... as he collected our fares with one of those new ticket machine thingies... he let the ticket print out and then tore it 3/4 of the way across and then handed over the little machine to us individually motioning for us to each tear off the final 1/3 of the ticket... how very odd... is this indicative of some sort of follow through phobia? Or do I simply notice very odd behaviours in people?

probably the latter

on another more humorous note... once of our microsite partners today produced a hilarious error... in signing up for the service their systems generate a random password taken from the English dictionary... the password can only be 8 words long and thus truncates the random word at the 8th letter... Apparently the test team requested a change to their password issuing system when they were assigned the password 'punish me' while testing! LOL! how hilarious is that! it truncated 'punishment'!

how much Dutch chocolate can one PC production team consume during a 9h period? approximately 600g /21.1 oz to be exact... won't be needing supper after all!

happy turkey day

to my family back home and to my friends too of course!

received this really cool shirt from my mum in the post today. It says trick on the front and treat on the back in orange writing... it's black and as you can guess it's a hallowe'en shirt :0) too cute!

the weekend was nice and relaxing, didn't end up in Antwerp as intended but chilled a lot and had great dinner with friends and a nice long bike ride. Monday morning, however... came too quickly.

less than a month till my trip to NYC getting well excited about it!

did you know that...

it's possible to do Signing With Your Baby: and that you can use sign language to communicate before your baby can talk.???

Well the other night when I was out with the lovely miss Hannah she was telling me about her boyfriend's brother's child who is learning sign language concurrently to speach. Apparently it's well popular in dem united states... it helps reduce frustration and subsequently crying in babies. How cool is that... man... not that I've got a degree in lanaguage aquisition or anything like that... (okay I do but I never talk about it) but it's such a brilliant idea!

My sign language interpreter friend would be most interested in this indeed....

excuse me while i run off and have babies so i can play!

dang... guess I'd need a bloke for that...

foiled again!

last night

when I returned home from my evening visiting with the lovely Hannah... I plugged in my mobile that had been dead all day. I cleared out the messages that I had received throughout the day. I noticed that I had one stored in my outgoing folder... I opened it and it read

'call dad'

now I'm absolutely clueless as to how that go there as I certainly didn't write it, nor did anyone touch my phone yesterday as it was out of juice...

I kind of wish I could call him as I would love to have a chat... but as my sister put it... but there is no way to call him up there!

message from beyond?

hmm I kind of would like to think so...

I'm thinking that he's been around London lately... Tuesday after work as I rushed out the back door of the office out of the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of a man sitting on a chair... identical profile to my father... I didn't dare look back for a closer look as I didn't want to disappoint myself because I knew that it was in theory impossible to see him... maybe he's stopped by for a visit?

Hi dad! love you!

you know

it's pretty amazing...

for the first time since like forever I'm not skint. It doesn't take a genius to figure out why, but god damned, it's a nice change.

this month is just flying by and soon in just a couple more weeks it will be time to flutter off to NYC! so so so excited about that.

popped into Harvey nics at lunch and had some fab french guy make my face glow... tee hee... makeup counters generally scare the poop out of me but this guy was sound and it wasn't so scary (but i really just went in to buy my flatmate a b'day pressie)... I'm meeting hannah after work tonight... she'll wonder what the occasion is ... i so rarely wear makeup to work (anything more than lipgloss that is...

dang where did the day go?

flowers flights and physio

I received the most beautiful bouquet of flowers from miss w. I didn't think it was possible for me to blush so much... t'was the last thing I expected to be quite honest... I couldn't believe the admin who rang me to tell me I had received them. I was convinced that they were for someone else. Needless to say I was beaming for the rest of the day.

The goodness continued as I found a flight home for xmas for 477£ super deal considering that the other direct fares were much closer to 700£. I'm flying with Kaffin's airline and will be there for 10 days! I can't wait!


Had a great but hilarious evening last night as I managed to jerk my neck and cause some serious pinched nerve pain... I couldn't move an inch! Laughing and crying in pain I managed to make it to work this morning... re-affirming that tube and bus travel while experiencing neck pain is so so so not recommended! Back to physio for me tonight again... shut up tasha I can hear you giggling!

no i'm serious I can hear you!

sail away with me

what will be will be...

I know that i was yonkers ago but i keep thinking how much the girls from the Filament office would have just loved David Grey'sTrafalgar square concert...

i'm thinking i should name my wee cycle as I've been spending so much time with her commuting to and from work... any suggestions? she sort of champagne coloured...

do you ever wonder sometimes what it would be like to just pack it all in... leave your job and just head out into the unknown? I know that eveverything would be ordinary eventually.... but it's nice to dream. back to my long term financial planning... *playingcoughsthelotto* if only I could actually earn money off of playing celebdac

past life

while downloading some completely useless emoticons for msn messenger here... I got to thinking about sally... she often says that she is convinced that she was a tropical fish in her past life. I once asked her to describe the type of fish she was and she sounded like a fancy black fish with flowing fins...

I wonder if I was anything in my past life? I hear people say that piceseans are at the last round of your life cycle and that when I die I shall finally get some rest... no more coming back, but if you ask me I feel as if I was kind of a young spirit... don't know if I've been around before or not?

Have you?

Speaking of past lives... I was stood on the corner waiting to cross the road to get to my office, a motorcycle pulled up I looked at the driver in the eyes and swear to god it was my ex... Okay so yea maybe I made myself believe it because of the bike and all but the eyes, the nose the figure... I swear it was him... and there is a good chance that it was as the last time I spoke with him, he told me that him and his wife and his daughter were probably moving here in a couple of years... I wonder if that's true? I would so love to catch up with him, meet the baby and such ... ring me Shawn melito :)

because robert smith says so and that's why!


do the unstuck

it's a perfect day for letting go
setting fire tobridges, boats and other dreary worlds you know
lets get happy

it's a perfect day for making out
to wake up with a smile without a doubt
to burst scream giggle jump sing and shout
lets get happy

but it's much too late
you said, for doing this now now
should of done it then but it just goes to show
how long it's been and how you really should know
that it's never too late to get up and....... GO

tra la la

tra la la

it's the perfect day to
throw back your hair
and kiss it all goodbye

okay yea so while I'm writing this my co-worker walked by and placed a print out on my dest that reads:

----------------------------------
IF DECK
IS SALTY
THERE WILL
BE LASHINGS
-----------------------------------

Okay now it makes a bit more sense...

unsatiable hunger....

and extreme wanting to be back where i left you this morning. If i close my eyes I can almost feel your breath on my cheek.

blogging

these days has been a bit of a challenge to say the least. It's mostly having to do with working so gosh darned much... no excuses... what on earth will my one faithful reader do for enjoyment? *scoff*

since i've last written I've made an exorbitantly expensive train journey to Bristol where I worked my ass off for a day trying to get this damned project off the ground... fruitful as it was there is still a ways to go.

cycling to work continues like a storm... cooler mornings now are a bit more challenging to motivate and dark nights post gym are a little daunting but with blinkity blinkity lights it's better.

kaffin is now booke in to join me in NYC how spendid... i know another secret but i just can't tell *bursts*

oi how is it that flights to belgium and even train journeys costs almost as much as my flight to NYC? I will never understand!!!!!!!

during my recent bout of very uncharacteristic insomnia I've mostly been enjoying the amazing view of the sky from my bedroom window... nothing but sky for miles and miles and not buildings blocking the view... space in london- quite a luxury indeed :)

what to do...

in the morning to make you smile:

-sing been caught stealing by Jane's Addiction (changing 'stealing ' to 'speeding' ) to to flatmate who's just been done for speeding :)

- cycle to work through hyde park and breathe in the beauty

what not to do...

- attempt to disembark the number 98 bus on Oxford st. while it's still moving... the poor bloke spilt all over the pavement... he's lucky it was just a ripped suit!

- realise that the location that your beautiful cycle brought you is indeed work... and that yes, you're now a prisoner of your desk for the next nine hours!

naeot!
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pttrey azamnig

desk

is now clean... all stray papers have been filed... a bit of neurosis to try and help get this mountain of work looking like something is attainable... We all had a good laugh the other day as our arsey Sr. Boss guy so gently put it to us... 'there are 7 days in a week and 24h in a day, so there is simply no excuse for things to not be completed' this is not the type of place where overtime is a common occurance for all staff and the reluctance for this to become that type of place was quite comical to say the least... oh boy.... when exactly is it that I will become financially intependant and not need to work anymore? No time soon I bet cha!

Tickets to NYC are booked for November, can't wait... seems like an eternity until then... There is always a weekend with sio in Antwerp to look forward to, but jaysus why is the eurostar just so dang expensive? I guess it still is faster than flying if you take into account that you've got your travel time to the airport then your check in 1h ahead thing...so I guess it's worth it...

The flatmates should all be back in the fort by the begining of next week... where did the month go? off and away like vapors...

this weekend I was mostly

having fun at this
free concert it was brilliant... even Carlione a die hard David Grey - hater was impressed with him... Sky and Morcheba were fantastic too. Thanks to Andy whom I work with for scoring me a ticket!

It was a nice quiet weekend before the gig on Sunday... Saw the lovely miss Dearbhla and Jane and Caroline and Dani and all that crew when I ventured down south to Clapham for a social gathering on Saturday. Jane jets off on her year long travel adventure with her gf starting in Peru! How exciting for them!

To Austria with me next week. The lovely Chris (our admin) has booked me into a fab hotel in the centre and I get to fly out the night before so I have a bit of time to explore Vienna, sweet!

Kaffin is still due to arrive on Friday morning. I think I might try and squeeze in a visit to the ol salon in the morning to get my hair coloured it's been ages... will be so nice to see her and have a whole day off!

My LAN line is to be installed tomorrow for an exorbitant cost of course since we're the first occupants of this flat... will be nice to hear my mum's voice again as it's been well over a month since we've last spoken... didn't quite appreciate the value of having a home phone before this...

Miss B has returned from her travels with Sally. Can't wait to hear about the wilds of Vietnam!

Tumbling class tonight for me but nothing involving my neck says my physio... can't wait!

Fitness kick is back on again... watch this space... I've taken to cycling to work (although this involves me getting lost as I am crapola at navigating west London). I've also joined the new gym near my work... it's got a pool, how fit!?!?!

Sean has apparently fallen off the face of the earth.

on my desktop right now...

is a picture of the ocean... taken from within the swell of a wave. nothing tacky nothing over stated nothing contrived... there is no break to the wave, it's just starting to swell... the angle is such, that you can feel the anticipation of how large it's going to be... the blue of the ocean melds with the sky, the scene is impending. when I look at it I can conjure the feeling of being right there, heart racing, feeling the swell grow, awaiting the moment when you get pulled with the surf.

pictures are just so amazing...

okay so i'm really really really naughty and ripped the picture from 28mm.org... but it's brill so shhh don't tell the photographer...

so

i'm not quite as low as I was last week... I think not having a home phone and not being able to speak to my mum in any means other than email in over a month just made things worse... I think my hormones are evil and punishing me for not breeding... PMS was an evil force in my broodiness lately...

I've just finished this article for mutationspottig and it's funny, how something like that give you such a great sense of achievement. A feeling that you don't often get once you've left education. Don't get me wrong, there is no chance of me going back for another degree or anything of the sorts, any time soon... but it's good to track these sorts of feelings... helps you keep track of time, attribute order to things in life.

My trip to NL was cancelled this week so I won't see my seestor tonight like I had planned... however, she will be in town next weekend, so I'm taking Friday off to spend with her. In theory I was going to go home for a visit as I could have had the week of the 8th off but why bother as the flights are insanely dear right now.. and Kaffin would be here...

However, in an effort to keep my will to live going... I've booked the rest of the holidays for this year. I'm going to NYC in November (providing miss Y will have me) then heading home for xmas on the 17th... I can always shave off some days from my xmas visit if I start going mad mid Oct. (very probable) but hey... that's not far off normal is it?

The lovely miss Siobhan rang me last night! It was so great to speak to her and hear about her new adventures in Belgium. I'll probably nip over there to visit her in the next two weeks to see how he and Annouk are settling. I'm so happy to be back in touch with her again!

last year

radiohead showed me how to disapear completely... thank goodness i've not forgotten how as i would sort of like to do that again.

if you're looking for me, look behind a cloud just north of the river

but really:

i'm not here
this isn't happening

celeb bingo

continues... Borris Becker was having lunch at the oyster bar this afternoon. He looked me right in the eye and then smiled as I walked past. I've figured that he must have thought I was a waitress as I was dressed all in black! Ah well... no broom closet and illegitimate child on the menu for me today...

I'm convinced that I either suffer from a major vitamin deficiency, or I have mild narcolepsy... sleep is just so so taking over every day of my life! HELP!